I'm only a little sad.
I'm trying not to be angry.
But hopeful, strong, positive, and healthy seem to be more fitting today.
There is hope in love.
And I am living in anticipation of what is to come.
In one week, I will set off on a new adventure.
Life has just begun...and love will win this race.
2 comments:
It's amazing sometimes how much it hurts to acknowledge the truth of what is staring us strait in the face. Funny how even though we profess with our lips and understand with our heads that God has it all under control, our hearts have this pesky habit of aching.
Beloved, you have such an amazing adventure before you. Dive in and know that you are beautiful and loved.
Lydia,
This month, I have been married for 2 years. And I also remember all too clearly what heartbreak feels like.
I just want to encourage you that marriage, more than anything, is "light" - that which makes manifest, in the words of the apostle John.
Marriage is not really an incredibly happy experience all the time... its pretty normal; but it is definitely good. I'm sure you've heard every speech now, so I'll stop.
Whatever the case, please remember that pain always seeks to dominate and drive every other emotion - pain wants to be in control, and it seeks control through expression in place of really asking God for anything. Please remember to cry out to God with requests when you are anxious or hurting in your marriage. There is nothing I could want more for any person, because "supplication, with thanksgiving" (Phil 4:6-7) is our certain means to "the peace of God which surpasses all understanding."
It really broke my heart reading your post because I can see how real your feelings are and that you have been suffering.
You are precious to the Lord, and I would say above anything else, remember that despair is always based on a lie (because with God, all things are possible).
I really hope the best for you and your new adventure.
Be blessed.
- Daniel
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