the dream job list

• helping people in some way
• takes place outside (not all the time)
• active
• promotes positive living
• incorporates the spanish language
• involves working with school-aged girls

dallas forever?

Somedays, I catch myself and ask,



"Is this forever?" Am I in the place that will be my home for the rest of time?



On one hand, I could use the stability. On the other, I could use a little more mystery and adventure.



But I hope that this isn't as good as it gets.

But I hope I don't take advantage of this time...because it's pretty good.

non-negotiables.

I've never been the type to really focus on relationships that don't exist, but now, I find it necessary to really examine what I want in a relationship, what I expect from a relationship, and who I hope to be in a relationship.

At this point in my life, I'm not the woman I need to be in order to be a part of a God-honoring relationship. I'm in a place where my hurt will only bring me down, and in order for me to rise out of the muck, I need to have goals.

So here are my non-negotiables for ANY future relationships IN WRITING so that I can be held accountable and hold myself accountable to these:

For my partner:

• loves and seeks after Christ
• committed to doing so in an authentic way
• strong enough to make decisions that include me
• considers me in their actions
• excited to be with me
• affirms their feelings both emotionally and physically
• open, honest, and forthcoming with emotions and thoughts
• wants to be a part of my life
• wants me to be a part of his
• involved in healthy community
• committed to doing what is right no matter the consequences
• confronts issues as they arise

For me:

• seeks the Lord daily in decisions and for guidance
• passionate about pursuing Christ's love and living it out
• supportive first
• loving always
• challenges to help him reach his potential--not just for the sake of challenging him
• affectionate
• dependable
• selfless --takes him into consideration in all decisions
• confident and trusting
• involved in healthy community
• seeking guidance from trusted examples

living miracles...

I am living a miracle.

When you call upon God for healing, He WILL answer.
He has answered.

I cannot and will not lie about the healing process that I've undergone.
I will not allow silence to burden me.

For the first time, I am being open and honest about how I really feel.

Hiding from my emotions in order to appear stronger won't work.
Acting as if something incredibly life-changing never occurred will only prolong the pain.

I am far too happy to let something rob me of my joy.
I have far too much to fight for, enjoy, and love in my future.

one moment...

For just a moment, I wish things would slow down.

When someone asks me, "What's new?" I want to be able to say, "Nothing really."

Not for eternity--just a moment.

My heart can only take so much, and my mind can only convince myself that I'm strong enough for so long.

My God, who is mighty to save.
My God, who is my strength.
My God, who is my comfort.
My God, who is my hope.
My God, who brings me peace.
My God, who has proven himself faithful.
My God, who has redeemed me from the depths.
My God, who has healed me time and time again.
My God, who has blessed me.
My God, who has pursued me.
My God, who conquers evil.
My God, who loves.
My God, who delivers.
My God, who grants freedom.
My God, who created me.

My God, set me free.

He is faithful...

God is proving Himself faithful to me.

I moved to Dallas. I found an affordable apartment in a great area filled with activity and people.

I found a great church dedicated to loving others with the love of Christ.
I found great people within that church that play Ultimate regularly (thank you, Jesus!).
I found a great community group of women that seem incredible.

I have a fantastic job with fantastic co-workers that serve people in a fantastic way.

God is so good to me...especially in a season of my life that has been plagued with disappointment, change, and pain.

In only a week, He has proven Himself faithful to His daughter, and I am so grateful.

out with the old...

Okay, kiddos. No more sad, sappy posts.

That season is over--a new season is beginning.

Positivity is replacing heartache, and it's time to move on.

Come on, Dallas. Show me what you're made of.