snowflake kisses.

I come back to this site nearly everyday, hoping to find some way to articulate the past month of my life.

It's nearly impossible.

How can I fully capture the essence of the life I'm living right now?

I'm not living the life I expected, but I'm loving the life I'm living.

I'm not doing anything amazing. I'm just being.

I'm learning to love--how to really love.

None of this is what I expected, not even what I hoped for.

But I wouldn't change it for the world.

Some days, I'm angry.

Angry that decisions aren't easy.

Angry that things aren't falling into place the way I hoped they would.

Angry that my future is being transformed by the moment, and I have no clue what I'm in for.

But I'm learning about what I want, what I need...and how to fight for those things.

This, in itself, is a valuable lesson for me.

I live a jaded and naive life. And everyday, I realize how I've misunderstood God's plan for me and how He's revealed himself to me in the path I've walked.

I have no idea what He wills for me except to pursue life and Him..and love.

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the kiss of a snowflake

covers miles of emptiness

it's as if you're right here

as if you always were